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June Measurements

How tall are you? Do you like your height

I’m 5’3 1/2 and yes i love my height. Sometimes I wish i was a little taller because i feel I’m a little short for my age (im 21) haha but i dont think i will be growing anymore. The best thing is that I can wear heels and not look too tall.

I just want some pizza

a large cheese pizza from dominos oh my god that sounds so good right now FUCK

when I lose 20 pounds I will allow myself to have three slices of cheese pizza from dominos.

184 here I come

one of my favorites

Breakfast!! Nomnom :)

Strawberry yogurt, berries and almond flakes

Green tea

thinspo update :]

It bothers me when people post pictures of girls and say things like “I can’t wait to look like that!” or “She has the perfect body!”

Why can’t you wait to look like yourself when you get fit? I don’t see the point in obsessing over someone else’s body just because you don’t look like them. Sure, seeing someone’s success story is amazing. I love reading about another’s journey, because it helps motivate me. I have the “If they can do it, I can do it!” mentality.

But don’t beat yourself up if you don’t look just like them, and definitely don’t aim to look exactly like them. If you do, you may end up being sorely disappointed, because (here’s a shocker) your body isn’t exactly like someone else’s.

Just aim to do and be your best, and you will love yourself even more when you finally reach your goal.

i’m 5 foot 6 inches. here’s my story: I’ve lost 0 pounds and been dieting/working out since January (i’ve been slacking off this past month). BUT i’ve gone from an XL to an L in shirts! and alomost 3 sizes in pants! i know it might be muscle gain but like i said, i’ve been slacking this last month and i just really want the scale number to drop. pleeeeease, i would love advice/motivation from ANYONE!

STAYY—BEAUTIFULL.TUMBLR.COM

It’s called a combination swiss ball pike and roll-out.

Sounds like a medieval torture device. But it’s actually easy to learn and extremely efficient. In fact, you can probably get a killer ab workout by doing this move fewer than 10 times.

“If someone was looking at one exercise and wanted to make sure he was getting the most abdominal work done in a way that makes him look better and function better,” says trainer Nick Tumminello, “this is the exercise to do.”

To start the pike/roll-out, simply hold yourself in a pushup position with your feet on a swiss ball. (To make the exercise easier, move the swiss ball towards your belly button) With your body in a plank (straight) position, keep your legs straight and push your hips towards the ceiling while keeping your back flat. After straightening your hips and coming back to the start position, push your body backwards on the ball until your arms are fully extended in front of you and your legs are fully extended behind you.

If you can’t see this video, you can watch it HERE

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Finally got a tape measurer…here my June measurements. I will compare on July 2!

Height: 5’11

Weight: 229 lbs.

Bust: 44.5

Waist: 37.5

Hips: 49 (YIKES!)

Left Thigh: 24.5

Right Thigh: 24

Left Calf: 16.5

Right Calf: 16

Left Arm: 13. 5

Right Arm: 13.5

That was kind of scary, especially the hip measurements. My goodness. Still, I would rather know and face the problem head on than ignore the problems like I have been for almost 2 years!

I was amused but scared they were onto me :S

INTAKE: Not too good :/

EXERCISE: none/ just walking around the mall for a few minutes.

Today’s exercise! Got up at 7 AM and was at the gym by 8 AM. I did 45 minutes of working out!

Bike: 20 minutes. 4 miles. 90.2 calories :)
Leg Press: 3 sets of 120 lbs. 12 reps each. Legs felt tired today. Couldn’t manage the 140 lbs I was doing earlier this week. I love the leg press but I need to give it a break tomorrow.
Rows: 3 sets of 37.5 lbs, 50 lbs, and 44 lbs. Each with 12 reps. I challenged myself on this machine to try a higher weight class and it worked well! Tomorrow I will try for 2 sets at 50 lbs.
Overhead Press: 3 sets. 2 sets at 37.5 lbs, 1 set at 25 lbs. 12 reps twice, 8 once.
Crunches: 50 crunches. 40 more oblique crunches, 20 on each side. Felt sore today. My core is probably even weaker than my upper body strength. Probably worn out from yesterday’s crunches.
Squats: 1 set of 10 so far. Planning on doing more throughout the day. I think squats are a good way to stretch out my tight hamstrings.
Stretch: Did another round of post biking stretching. I’ve heard that you shouldn’t stretch “cold” muscles.

Did quite a bit for a 45 minute workout. I’m working my psychological endurance up to start thinking about 30 minute biking warm-ups :) Almost had the willpower to do it today, tomorrow’s outlook is good.

I don’t know if I’m burning a significant amount of calories or not but I’m feeling better at least psychologically about working out everyday. It’s healthy to do 30 minutes a day they say and I’m sticking close to that right now. I want to work up to a longer workout over time but for someone who usually only works out during the summers anyway (and by that I mean 20 minute jogs, twice a week out of boredom) I’ve really come a long way in just a week :)

Maybe I’ll be able to keep it up throughout the school year too!

That’s How I’ve Been Feeling Lately…. I Was Working 3 Jobs For The Past 3 Weeks Up Until Last Week & Currently Working 2 Jobs Until June 15th When CPS Kids Are Out Of School! I’m Starting To Develop A Blah Life As It’s All Work & No PLAY!…Lol I Just Need To Get Back On A Daily Work Schedule Because I’ve Not Been Eating Right & I’ve Gain A Few Pound Due To Me Not Working Out As I Was About Three Weeks Ago… Haven’t Been To My Weight Watchers Meeting In Two Weeks:(….UGH! I Was Doing Really Good Had Lost A Totally Of 13 Lbs But, Stepped On The Scale & I’m Up A Few Pounds….:( So, I Know What I Need To Do But, All In All I Know I Bite Off More Than I Could Chew When I Agreed To Start My Summer Gig Before The Kids Got Outta School! Working All Three Jobs Had Become Tooo Much That I Had To Quit MCA-Chicago….

Within The Next Week I Am Getting Back On My Workout Routine & Will Start Logging My Meals On WW Cause I Refuse To Ruin All The Hard Work I’ve Done In The Pass Three Months!

ECA Online Courses Are Starting At The End Of The Month & I’m More Nervous Than Excited….Lol

Anyways, I Have To Work Today At MP From 11-6pm… Hope The Day Goes By Fast!

Later, Gators!

I woke up and run/walked 2 miles- I walked more than I would have liked since even though it was cool, it was really humid. Bleh, but I still did it! :D

Now I’m about to do Ab Ripper X and maybe start day 15(!) of p90x! It doesn’t seem like it’s been 2 weeks already. I’ll probably hold off on that because I’m pretty dang hungry, though.

THEN JOB INTERVIEW

(then arms and back workout, probably)

Then mediterranean food-

Then I’m gonna go to the roller derby.

YUS.

I really thought I was going to gain from yesterday.

I’m losing weight noticeably. My size 16 jeans fit on the hips again without straining. I’ve been at this diet for 6 days and it seems like the water weight coming off is really helping me get back in to my clothes. I’m well aware that the weight in fat is going to come off steadier and I hope that I don’t get discouraged with only 1-2lb coming off a week.

I’ve had to up my calorie intake. While running around with two children, housework, cooking, walking and staying up in the nights comforting a six month old baby, 950 calories is making me feel faint and constantly hungry. I don’t think it would be so bad if I wasn’t burning at least 400 calories a day in strength and cardiovascular exercise which brings my net calories way under 950.

I’ve upped my intake to 1100 which allows me a slightly larger portion at dinner. I’m still eating very well and I not consuming any junk apart from Monster energy drinks. I’m still exercising to tone and to feel healthy. I’m still very positive about the next week and the week after that.

I would kill for a big slice of Red Velvet cake or Tiramasu right now. Last night I drank a double Tia Maria and Coke and wanted to eat the entire glass because it tasted so much like my beloved Tiramasu. I think if I allow myself to treat I’ll be treating myself with a small portion of Tiramasu.

I’ve also promised Sean that once I’ve lost 20lb we’ll go to Peachy Keens because he loves that place as much as I do. I have also promised I will really treat myself and I’ll eat a three course meal. One day off.

Ripped in 30 Daily Meal Plans:

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It’s been 16 days, 16 days! This slightly blows my mind because when I used to go on “health bouts” I’d usually last a week before I fell victim to a binge or started having extreme doubt. It feels so unimaginably good not to be the victim anymore.

Today’s weigh in: 134.5

It feels so weird being here, because I never thought’d I get here, in a million years, I was the girl that’d given up all hope? And yet here I am! As far as numbers go I always aimed at 130 mostly because at the height of my ED I weighed 127 and looked frail and sick (I now know that’s because of my unhealthy habits not the number) but regardless I am a little weary with numbers. I definitely don’t see myself going anywhere below 125, I don’t think it’d suit my body, I think the lowest” perhaps 126. But let’s just play it by week and see what happens because I’m this far and already feel great. Numbers aren’t a big deal anymore.

*Celebrating with oatmeal and peanut butter, it has been too long. This is the reason I woke up so early…*

So, yesterday, I went to a nice store to get myself a congratulatory dress in a US size 6 finally, (that same dress wouldn’t zip up in a 10 a month and a half ago!) and had the following odd conversation with the lady on the cash.

Her (very obese nosy older lady - I’m not saying this just to be mean, she could barely walk): So, what’s the occasion for you getting this dress? A wedding, a party?

Me: Mmm… no.. just for me.

Her: Well, any special reason??

Me (exasperated): It’s just a reward for a personal accomplishment. I lost some weight.

Her: How much? How long did it take? How many sizes did you go down???

Me: I went from a 10 to a 6 in a month and a half.

Her: OH MY! You’re not STARVING yourself, are you??? Because my daughter starved herself but she didn’t lost ANY weight, so don’t starved yourself!!

Me (starting to feel really awkward, feeling paranoid she KNOWS): Um, no. Just eating less and more vegan meals, exercising more…

Her (tears up): Well, sweetie, you’re SUCH an inspiration to so many people! Such a success story, and did it the healthy way, too! Here’s a coupon for 25% off ANYTHING next time you’re here! (It’s kind of an expensive-ish store)

Me (feeling increasingly awkward): Thank you…

I took the coupon and in all honesty will use it, but I felt so terrible that the lady thought I was an “inspiration’. Ugh, I’m so disgusted with myself, I should not inspire anyone to lose weight the way I am. I’m doing it, because it gives me a semblance of sanity, and the “healthy way” does NOT work for me. The devious me is pleased that I somehow “tricked” the poor lady, but the rest of me is just feeling…. ugh.

I took a photo in a mirror this morning, to considering posting a “in process” progress, but once I saw it, I burst into tears. I can’t let anyone see me like this yet. The scale shows a loss of 20 pounds, but somehow I CAN’T SEE IT even in a photo. Maybe when I lose 25 pounds in total. I’ll try again, I promise.

wahhhhh

It’s Friday - which means I got on the scale this morning….

Progress: -24.4 lbs

To Goal: -20.6 lbs

Days In: 228

Days Until my 30th Birthday: 311

I lost 1.4 pounds this week

In the last TWO weeks - I’ve lost 2.6 lbs

Before tri workouts started - I’d drop an average of -.75/week (1.5 lbs every 2 weeks)

Which means - I’m losing ~75% more weight because of the tri training - that’s HUGE

It might just be an adjustment - and the weight loss may slow again, but for today… I’m a happy girl!!!

Just checked in for some lovely thinspiration. Now I’m going for my MWF run! Wish me luck!

How is everyone else doing?

I managed 5 morning runs this week! Five! To total 23 km. I plan on covering another 5k tomorrow then giving myself a rest day on Sunday aka fathers day and maybe go for a swim instead. Thanks mom for waking me up every morning at 640!

Photo

yay for trying on old jeans :-)

had 30 cals today and going out now with friends to avoid eating! bye xx

I’m now 141lbs :’)

1 more pound and I’m at my 1st goal weight!

how can being thin be more important than my parents. when did i become so disgustingly self centered?

Going a little easier on myself today since I haven’t had a real rest day in 2 weeks. Just...

Tomorrow I am going for a run. All my organised sports have finished… so it’s time to do something I’ve always hated and run on my own.

Weight: 156.6

The boyfriend and I woke up this morning, resistant to going to work, but in a good mood with energy nonetheless. I will be fasting again today, I’m hoping it will go better than yesterday, since I do have a shorter day at work today. I may even get a walk in after work, but who knows since I have a shit ton to do before I leave town for the weekend. I still need to get some money out of the bank for bills and start shopping for fathers day.

I will probably do a small workout at home before I head off to work, I need to do whatever I can today since I will be at my boyfriends for the rest of the weekend. I know fasting Saturday and Sunday will not be entirely possible. So I plan to pack up some of my own food, some vegetables and fruit to bring over, so that he knows that I’m eating something at least and doesn’t force me to go out for dinner.

It’s 3 a.m. Going to the beach at 11a.m. If I don’t fall asleep soon, I’m gonna be napping on my beach towel all afternoon! Not ready for this, but compared to the last time I was there, I am noticeably improved so I’m not gonna fret. Confidence (even forced) makes you more attractive. And I got numerous comments today from people I hadn’t seen in awhile that said I looked skinny! Yay!

300 calories today. Goal for tomorrow—> keep calories under 450, go to gym and do workout DVD at home, and drink more water. Easy.

Send here or to my ask box which is even better…..

long overdue goal weight/progress pictures. second goal weight was actually 275, but i am now 273. 75 pounds of healthy weight loss.

slloooowwwlllyy

Do skinny girls make more money?

While it should not make any sense at all, the sad reality is that no only do thin girls easily find relatively good jobs, they also make at least $22,000 more each year. In a study published in the Journal of Applied Psychology, overweight or obese women make even less than a woman of average weight. If you are not mad yet, listen to this one, for guys it makes no difference what their weight is. Actually, most of my middle aged bosses are pot bellied slobs.

Day One- Your stats

Age: 24

Height: 6’0”

Weight: 177lbs

Size: UK 14-16 (bottoms) and 14 (tops)

Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

Gotta get my wedding ring sized down and some links taken out of my watch! Nice problems to have.

DON’T EVER WORK OUT IF YOU HAVE NOT EATEN ALL DAY!!!!!!

I hadn’t eaten all day but I worked out anyways, figuring I would be okay.

WRONG.

Close to the end of my work out, I felt like throwing up so bad and my stomach hurt so much I couldn’t even concentrate anymore. I had to stop for a bit so I wouldn’t throw up all over the floor. I just finished working out and my stomach is still hurting really bad.

Shitty work out, ughh.

My five mile bike ride turned into a 6.3 mile bike ride. The weather went from dreary to beautiful and I didn’t want to stop.

so,

“I got you nutella too”

MOM!!! ARE YOU TRYING TO RUIN ME? hahaha oy vey- everything in moderation!

I was looking for bathing suits, but apparently they don’t sell them. I grabbed a few dresses...

Never realized how fucking ugly I am until now…

Finished day 2 week 3 of c25k. I was sweating buckets..literally. Bad thing was that I have misplaced my gym key, so my mom had to sneak me in tonight! Eeek@ I also went for a country bike ride with my best friend :). It was so fucking cold out today…brrrr! I’m hoping to hit my big deal goal in 2 pounds and my 30 pound mini goal in 7 pounds! Finishing off my night with some delicious fruit (apple, banana, pear)!

i am completely off track.

blueberry muffin for breakfast.

chipotle for lunch.

410 + 650 = 1,060 alone wtf?

skipped dinner, had about 10 french fries instead.

what the hell is wrong with me?

first day without new followers, probably deserved that.

no exercise.

not even gonna deal with this

probably just gonna fast now yaaay it was so good last time.

somehow, on these days that are so bad, are the days that i actually have a social life and friends - but i leave the house after looking in the mirror and feeling awful. it’s not worth it. i’d rather feel beautiful and lose the weight first, then go and be happy.

i don’t need to be happy to do this right.

If you have any requests for healthy recipes let me know! My family has started trying (and loving) the healthy food I'm making so I go through it faster and can try more new things! :D I only make vegetarian/ fish for myself but I'm more than happy to create a meat recipe for you to try! :)

I was sitting in a huge empty parking lot, on the top of my car with my summer fling. We got on the conversation of girl’s pants and how tight they are.

Me-It’s so hard to find pants because look at the ones I’m wearing now (motioning at my black skinny jeans), they fit me perfectly on the legs but look how big they are in the upper thigh/hips (pulling to expose the tons of extra fabric).

Him-haha maybe you should just gain some weight to fit into them

Me-ummm no, I would prefer to not be fat

Him-Yeah but too skinny isn’t okay either. The anorexic type of skinny where the girl looks like she could honestly pass out in 2 seconds or you could break her by touching her.

Me- yet you see millions of girls all over the world starving themselves to look like that (thinking of myself)

Him-yeah but the thing is, no boy likes girls that thin. I’ve never met a guy ever that said his type was the type that was stick thin, never.

he is missing the point, we starve ourselves for ourselves primarily, and secondarily others. I don’t starve myself because I only want boys, but I starve myself out of fear of becoming fat and it’s the only thing I can control anymore (what goes in my mouth).

he also just made me realize that i’m not skinny enough yet because he didn’t categorize me with the “too skinny” girls.

xoxo sarah

So today was okay, I guess. I lost another pound - I’m at 129 exactly! But I ate so fucking much today and girlfriend wants me to start eating 1,200 calories a day and guess what’s not going to happen? That.

Calorie Count

Total intake: 1,116 (jesus fucking christ)

Total outtake: 222 (so far, I need to burn 194 more)

Total net intake: 894

So damn, I’m just going to have to do better this weekend and maybe I’ll be able to convince her that I’m okay. I don’t know. I’ll just work out and get my net intake down to 700 and maybe tomorrow I can eat under 700. I really hope so. I need to be skinny.

i think my body is oddly shaped … i didn’t really realize it until today thought that i have a pretty small torso, but loooong legs. yeah, that bugs me … but whatever haha

and i just realized that with how much i’ve been running, i haven’t gotten shin splints! which actually makes me really happy because when i run (well jog) i go for 5 miles at the time!

and, p90x seems kind of interesting. but i don’t think i’m going to buy it. but it seems pretty cool.

okay, this was really random! ;)

Next Week's Plans

I’m going to be honest and say that when I stayed at my friend’s house the last couple of days I didn’t exercise as much self-control as I could have. I made a lot of bad choices with the excuse of not being at home and not being in control. I had A LOT of sodium, carbs, and a whole lot of fat(I finally had some pizza which is the only thing I literally refuse to eat because I know I’ll pig out…and I pigged out). It wasn’t pretty. My weight went back up by about 4 pounds as expected but like the last time this happened it’ll go back down pretty quickly and I’ll be right back on track in a couple of days(though I really would like to have continued without any setbacks…hopefully I’ll get through the summer without any more). I obviously haven’t learned my lesson with this, though, and I really need to. I won’t always be able to work out two hours a day and I can’t go my entire life without eating out or indulging so I need how to do it healthily. I can’t just let everything go to shit because it’s too hard to say no.

Anyway, I stayed with my cousin last night because I was babysitting her so when I got home I had a KIND protein bar and worked out for an hour on the elliptical. I had some high fiber oatmeal with a glass of soy milk after. I had a cup of coffee as I made dinner which was a couple of bites of turkey breast, sauteed portabello mushrooms with worchestershire sauce, and salad with balsamic vinegar, red peppers, tomato, and feta cheese. A little bit of pineapple was dessert. I worked out for another hour after that.

Would a hedonist diet?

I’ve been shit slack this week. Well let’s be honest here, for the last two weeks.

Carborama.

Gah. Blah. Oh, oops, that ones copywrited.

I’ve had bread, pasta, pizza (gasp). And the evil of all evils, Coke. A cola.

Boo me. I did go for a run Monday, but I doubt that counts now.

Crap. Why’s it so hard? I’ll attempt to stay away from the Duramine next week but I’m making no promises.

Here’s to another weekend. Cheers big ears.

Hey there, rib cage. It’s been a while. Now, that you came back I will do anything to keep you.

I haven’t done my workout yet :x

There’s still time! If I don’t get it in today, I’ll just count today as my rest day for the week… I’m so sore already. Getting in and out of the car today was painful lol

I walked around in the mall for hours shopping though… and didn’t buy anything, what a let down!

Went to dinner at Houlian’s with my sister and didn’t partake in the free disco fries… I only ate a max of 350 calories total so I’m still on track for the day as well, proving it’s entirely possible to make smart choices when eating at restaurants.

Real Girl Thinspo. My favorite kind.

This was something i did in OT(occupational therapy) today… i think it actually shows why Ed is so hard to combat…

it is a dialogue between me and my eating disorder:

Alyssa: I want recovery to live my life

Ed: No, you NEED me to survive

A: I need to change my lifestyle

E: You shouldn’t change anything because you’ll just fuck it all up

A: I want to be healthy and happy

E: I can give you that, if only you’d try harder you fat cow

A: I want to not hate my life

E: You should hate your life because you have fucked it up completely

A: I want a successful career

E: I’ll give you that by pushing you to accept nothing less than perfection. No perfection=FAILURE

A: I want a life filled with love and joy

E: You don’t deserve that

A: I am going to change to better myself

E: I will make your life a living hell if you disobey me

A: I want to be content with my life

E: You can be content when you are perfect

A: I want to have fun

E: You don’t deserve that. Everybody thinks you’re fat anyways, the only reason they hang out with you is so that you make them look better by being the fat friend

A: I want to be Ed free

E: You will never be good enough without me, you’re a loser and a failure without me; you will blow up like a balloon and become the fattest and most hated person on earth without me.

Seems irrational right?

But it goes through my head every minute of every day…

And after awhile…

Ed becomes truth…

if you ever wondered what i’m fighting

that’s part of it

So why do I still look exactly the same when I look in the mirror?:( I feel so fat, gross and just plain fucking ugly. Why can’t I see any of this weight come off? I’m a uk size 6/8, but I still LOOK at least a 12/14. Wtf? My mum wants me to go to the doctor, because she’s worried about the way I see myself. But why can’t she see it? I bet she does, really… So why won’t she admit that my stomach is still disgusting? That my thighs are still huge? That everything still jiggles when I move!? Tomorrow I’m going to drink loooads of water and eat ONLY fruit, and hopefully the next day, too. Actually I might try to do that until monday, I think. I’m so sick of catching my reflection and cringing away from it, will this shit ever stop?:/

MEAL PLAN FOR THE WEEK

Breakfast - banana, green tea

Snack (in school) - gumgumgum :)

Lunch - Weight Watchers soup/ravioli, strawberries/grapes/raspberries for dessert

Snack (before working out) - fruits, like an apple

Dinner (after working out) - canned tuna with corn/3 fiber crispbreads with low-fat, low-cal cheese or salami

Snack (late-night, in case) - fruits!

WORKOUT PLAN - MONDAY, TUESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY

*8-Minute Ab and Arm Workouts, once in the morning and once in the afternoon/evening

*1 hour total of walking/jogging on the treadmill

*30 minutes on the stationary bike

*2 rounds of strength training

-> Wednesday is my day-off from the gym! But I will still do the 8-Minute Ab and Arm Workouts twice, once in the morning and once in the evening.

-> On Saturday next week (June 25), I will take a picture wearing the exact outfit I wore in today’s picture and compare. What the scale says isn’t important.

Cait, you have to realize that you cannot afford any more unhealthy eating! I know the only reason you ate unhealthily tonight was because you had no more fruits to snack on, because your lazy butt just slept this afternoon instead of hit the grocery store. It’s your own fault, but tomorrow will be better. You’re going to stick to your plan, grocery shop for fruits and Weight Watchers soup as well. You are going to work out and love it. You will not even THINK about eating anything that is not what you planned. You are slowly getting back on track, and in a strange way, I’m actually proud of you.

Need a lot more improvement, but i’m not going to get too...

I’ve lost 1 pound in 2 friggin dayyyyysss ! And just come back from a 2 mile run baby !

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #1: Trust the Process

“Your body has changed from exercising and eating well, so you know the program works,” says Harper. “Don’t start questioning it or give up because you’ve stopped seeing noticeable progress. If you’re doing everything right, your body just has to go through an adjustment period.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #2: Try Not to Obsess

“Don’t focus on the 10, 20, or 50 pounds you’re still hoping to lose,” says Harper. “That’s too daunting. Take it day by day with small goals. When you get up, think, ‘Okay, I have to do my cardio workout and I’m going to make smart choices at lunch.’ Check your healthy habits on your to-do list.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #3: Let Your Body Rest

“You’ve been pushing yourself for a couple of months now. If you’re feeling worn out, take a day off, then return to your routine the next day,” suggests Harper. “The workouts are designed to break down your muscles so they get stronger, but they won’t if you don’t give them time to recover.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #4: Don’t Get Comfortable

If you keep doing a particular workout that you love—maybe 45 minutes on the elliptical—stop! “Instead, slash the time in half and jack up the intensity,” says Harper. “Your muscles will think, ‘What the heck is going on?’ and that’s exactly what will get you over the hump.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #5: Keep Reading SHAPE!

“Every month it’s filled with ways to change up your workout and stay inspired. Use them!” says Harper. “I also recommend taking group fitness classes, where you’re surrounded by likeminded people who enjoy working out. They’re fantastic motivation.”

I was feeling a bit down about my lack of loss for the last 2 days so I used a photo I took before my diet started (about 2 weeks before) and one I took 2 days ago!

Be prepared for sudden changes in your meal plan. For example, my uncle handed me a take out menu and told me to pick out lunch. So instead of a peanut butter sandwich and Dr. Pepper, I’m going to have a small bacon and mozzarella calzone and water. I’ll just walk a little bit further or dance a little bit longer than I originally planned.

oatmeal ( delicious with skim milk )
Whole egg ( with the yolk of course )
berries ( many kinds )
avocado
skim milk ( with fiber like tropicana slim milk )

I spent my grocery money for the week on a silk romper so I’m having coffee and toast as my only meal of the day

it’s cost-effective plus helps with weight loss!

You know how people say “from head to toe”

no exaggerating right now. Everything from my head to my toes hurt! haha and the fact that my toes hurt surprises the hell out of me.

I can’t really complain though. I got most of my room moved in and unpacked AND can easily count it as my workout until I can get my treadmill back up and running.

OMG! I forgot my workout DVD at my dads house! Guess I gotta make another trip haha. Not that I’m planning on doing a workout in this state or anything lol.

Chocolate for breakfast? YES!!!! This muffin is AMAZING and only 100 calories!!! I usually eat it with a cup of fruit for breakfast on the mornings I wake up craving chocolate!!! You feel like your cheating, but you are totally not!!! There are many different flavors to choose from on their website (which you can view by clicking on the picture). The only thing that is annoying is that they only sell standard flavors in stores (chocolate, corn, banana nut), if you want the more advanced flavors (chocolate chip mint, chocolate peanut butter, etc.) you need to order them off line!! This brand also sells cake mix, muffintops, brownies, and cakes!!!!! I am in love with these things!!!!!!!! TRY THEM :)

Need a lot more improvement, but i’m not going to get too down on myself.

Yay

141 lbs today! This is a huge success for me. Now to get into the 130s, i think i’ll die of happiness.

This is me, why and my goals

So when I grew up, I was a little bit fuller than the rest. Not fat, but I had a butt and large breasts while girls my age were stick thin. This made me hate my body. I wanted to hide it. When I was 16, I finally did something about it, I lost 5 kgs, unhealthily ofcourse, and suddenly everyone told me I looked fabolous. After the weightloss I began my rollercoaster of starving and binging resulting that I weighed, of course, more then to begin with. I got married early in my life, at 19, and my hubby and I always ate some crap at the evenings. I got to my highest weight and suddenly, when I was 21 I got prego. Now, my baby is now 1 year old, and luckily I have lost all the 20 kgs I gained plus 3 more, but I’m still far away from where I want to be, and where I was in the good old days. But this time, i’m going to be a little bit nicer towards my self. My baby helped me reach that point in my life. I don’t want him to have a fat mom, but I don’t want him to have an anorectic unhealthy mom either.

These are my stats.

Height: 154 cm

CW: 59 kgs

LW: 49 kgs

HW: 72 kgs (80+ before my baby plopped)

GW: 45 kgs

I can do it, I will do it, and you’ll see.

58 kg.

i’m finally going again. stupid plateau, i will kick your ass, and in the process kick mine.

Photo

Week 1 down.

Okay so it’s officially been one week since I started this diet. I have to admit, it has been really hard even though I’ve only been doing it for only one week. I think the most important factor that has helped me keep going is inspiration. I have a friend who is also trying to lose weight as well, though she doesn’t weigh as much as I do haha. We work out over the phone (it sounds funny but it works, trust me). I do have to admit though towards the end of the week, I sort of crashed on the “healthy eating”. I would blame my family for taking me out to eat buuuuuuuuuuuut it is my fault, because I could have chosen to eat a salad or soup instead of a bacon cheeseburger (sigh….). But oh well. I worked out like crazy the day after and I think it paid off because I LOST WEIGHT!.

Ha. I don’t mean to get so excieted but just seeing that slight difference in the scale really made my week and made me think what I’m doing is worth it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Ready to know the final number as of today??????

As of today I weigh.

177

It’s not that big of a difference but it still makes me happy. I’m going to keep going

Oh and here are this weeks pics

front

side

side I really saw a slight difference here from the side. kinda happy about that :)

back

back look! my nasty fat rolls got less nasty and fat! yay!

You can’t really tell but my arms are a little tighter too. I did ALOT of upper body work this week. I need to do some more running and lower body stuff.

Anyways this is my progress so far, not much but it is something. What I want to do is make like a slideshow of my progress so you guys can watch me shrink.

This week I plan to work out more and control my mouth more. I know I can do this. If I can, anyone can!

So, see you guys soon or whenever I get the chance to post :P

I refuse to be fat and I’m out.