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| "Family" photo June 26, 2011 |
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| BBQ Fest Volunteers June 18, 2011 |
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| Reckless Kelly Concert June 26 |
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| Picnic on Lake Dillon, July 1, 2011 |
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| Frisco 4th of July parade. Snow is better than candy on a hot day. |
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| "Family" photo June 26, 2011 |
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| BBQ Fest Volunteers June 18, 2011 |
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| Reckless Kelly Concert June 26 |
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| Picnic on Lake Dillon, July 1, 2011 |
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| Frisco 4th of July parade. Snow is better than candy on a hot day. |
INTAKE: Not too good :/
EXERCISE: none/ just walking around the mall for a few minutes.
Today’s exercise! Got up at 7 AM and was at the gym by 8 AM. I did 45 minutes of working out!
Did quite a bit for a 45 minute workout. I’m working my psychological endurance up to start thinking about 30 minute biking warm-ups :) Almost had the willpower to do it today, tomorrow’s outlook is good.
I don’t know if I’m burning a significant amount of calories or not but I’m feeling better at least psychologically about working out everyday. It’s healthy to do 30 minutes a day they say and I’m sticking close to that right now. I want to work up to a longer workout over time but for someone who usually only works out during the summers anyway (and by that I mean 20 minute jogs, twice a week out of boredom) I’ve really come a long way in just a week :)
Maybe I’ll be able to keep it up throughout the school year too!
That’s How I’ve Been Feeling Lately…. I Was Working 3 Jobs For The Past 3 Weeks Up Until Last Week & Currently Working 2 Jobs Until June 15th When CPS Kids Are Out Of School! I’m Starting To Develop A Blah Life As It’s All Work & No PLAY!…Lol I Just Need To Get Back On A Daily Work Schedule Because I’ve Not Been Eating Right & I’ve Gain A Few Pound Due To Me Not Working Out As I Was About Three Weeks Ago… Haven’t Been To My Weight Watchers Meeting In Two Weeks:(….UGH! I Was Doing Really Good Had Lost A Totally Of 13 Lbs But, Stepped On The Scale & I’m Up A Few Pounds….:( So, I Know What I Need To Do But, All In All I Know I Bite Off More Than I Could Chew When I Agreed To Start My Summer Gig Before The Kids Got Outta School! Working All Three Jobs Had Become Tooo Much That I Had To Quit MCA-Chicago….
Within The Next Week I Am Getting Back On My Workout Routine & Will Start Logging My Meals On WW Cause I Refuse To Ruin All The Hard Work I’ve Done In The Pass Three Months!
ECA Online Courses Are Starting At The End Of The Month & I’m More Nervous Than Excited….Lol
Anyways, I Have To Work Today At MP From 11-6pm… Hope The Day Goes By Fast!
Later, Gators!
I woke up and run/walked 2 miles- I walked more than I would have liked since even though it was cool, it was really humid. Bleh, but I still did it! :D
Now I’m about to do Ab Ripper X and maybe start day 15(!) of p90x! It doesn’t seem like it’s been 2 weeks already. I’ll probably hold off on that because I’m pretty dang hungry, though.
THEN JOB INTERVIEW
(then arms and back workout, probably)
Then mediterranean food-
Then I’m gonna go to the roller derby.
YUS.
I really thought I was going to gain from yesterday.
I’m losing weight noticeably. My size 16 jeans fit on the hips again without straining. I’ve been at this diet for 6 days and it seems like the water weight coming off is really helping me get back in to my clothes. I’m well aware that the weight in fat is going to come off steadier and I hope that I don’t get discouraged with only 1-2lb coming off a week.
I’ve had to up my calorie intake. While running around with two children, housework, cooking, walking and staying up in the nights comforting a six month old baby, 950 calories is making me feel faint and constantly hungry. I don’t think it would be so bad if I wasn’t burning at least 400 calories a day in strength and cardiovascular exercise which brings my net calories way under 950.
I’ve upped my intake to 1100 which allows me a slightly larger portion at dinner. I’m still eating very well and I not consuming any junk apart from Monster energy drinks. I’m still exercising to tone and to feel healthy. I’m still very positive about the next week and the week after that.
I would kill for a big slice of Red Velvet cake or Tiramasu right now. Last night I drank a double Tia Maria and Coke and wanted to eat the entire glass because it tasted so much like my beloved Tiramasu. I think if I allow myself to treat I’ll be treating myself with a small portion of Tiramasu.
I’ve also promised Sean that once I’ve lost 20lb we’ll go to Peachy Keens because he loves that place as much as I do. I have also promised I will really treat myself and I’ll eat a three course meal. One day off.
Ripped in 30 Daily Meal Plans:Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 Meal Plan
It’s been 16 days, 16 days! This slightly blows my mind because when I used to go on “health bouts” I’d usually last a week before I fell victim to a binge or started having extreme doubt. It feels so unimaginably good not to be the victim anymore.
Today’s weigh in: 134.5
It feels so weird being here, because I never thought’d I get here, in a million years, I was the girl that’d given up all hope? And yet here I am! As far as numbers go I always aimed at 130 mostly because at the height of my ED I weighed 127 and looked frail and sick (I now know that’s because of my unhealthy habits not the number) but regardless I am a little weary with numbers. I definitely don’t see myself going anywhere below 125, I don’t think it’d suit my body, I think the lowest” perhaps 126. But let’s just play it by week and see what happens because I’m this far and already feel great. Numbers aren’t a big deal anymore.
*Celebrating with oatmeal and peanut butter, it has been too long. This is the reason I woke up so early…*
So, yesterday, I went to a nice store to get myself a congratulatory dress in a US size 6 finally, (that same dress wouldn’t zip up in a 10 a month and a half ago!) and had the following odd conversation with the lady on the cash.
Her (very obese nosy older lady - I’m not saying this just to be mean, she could barely walk): So, what’s the occasion for you getting this dress? A wedding, a party?
Me: Mmm… no.. just for me.
Her: Well, any special reason??
Me (exasperated): It’s just a reward for a personal accomplishment. I lost some weight.
Her: How much? How long did it take? How many sizes did you go down???
Me: I went from a 10 to a 6 in a month and a half.
Her: OH MY! You’re not STARVING yourself, are you??? Because my daughter starved herself but she didn’t lost ANY weight, so don’t starved yourself!!
Me (starting to feel really awkward, feeling paranoid she KNOWS): Um, no. Just eating less and more vegan meals, exercising more…
Her (tears up): Well, sweetie, you’re SUCH an inspiration to so many people! Such a success story, and did it the healthy way, too! Here’s a coupon for 25% off ANYTHING next time you’re here! (It’s kind of an expensive-ish store)
Me (feeling increasingly awkward): Thank you…
I took the coupon and in all honesty will use it, but I felt so terrible that the lady thought I was an “inspiration’. Ugh, I’m so disgusted with myself, I should not inspire anyone to lose weight the way I am. I’m doing it, because it gives me a semblance of sanity, and the “healthy way” does NOT work for me. The devious me is pleased that I somehow “tricked” the poor lady, but the rest of me is just feeling…. ugh.
I took a photo in a mirror this morning, to considering posting a “in process” progress, but once I saw it, I burst into tears. I can’t let anyone see me like this yet. The scale shows a loss of 20 pounds, but somehow I CAN’T SEE IT even in a photo. Maybe when I lose 25 pounds in total. I’ll try again, I promise.
This means I do most of my workouts at night. Mostly before bed. I’m a freak and working out before bed actually makes me sleep better so…
This also sucks, because I reach my net calories and then burn them and then end up in a situation where I run around 600 net calories and don’t feel like eating.
I’m trying to start working out in the morning. Like today, I walked/ran this morning on the treadmill and it was nice. So I guess I’m gonna keep doing that.
So today I officially started cycle 1: accelerate.
The purpose of this cycle is to start the rapid weight loss basically by detoxing your body. For the next seventeen days, I’m allowed unlimited protein (meat, poultry, fish, and my favorite, eggs!), but I have to limit my carbs. By reducing carbs, my body will have to turn to fat to convert into energy. Also, cutting sugar is a big part of this step. The book suggest truvia as an alternative to sugar, and also to splenda/equal/sweet’n’low. I HATE splenda with such a passion, but I had a truvia in my green tea before and it tasted like sugar. So thumbs up for that.
Anyhoo, I don’t want to get into all that technical stuff right now, i’ll do that maybe over the weekend. Today was particularly hard because I didn’t have any food prepared, and I only had some frozen vegetables, a little chicken. but here’s how my day went:
-Woke up at 10:30am: i’m still trying to straighten out my sleep cycle, so I had gone to bed around 2am, so I still got eight hours. I already take meletonin (a vitamin) to sleep, so I took that about an hour ago, so I should be asleep fairly quickly, and I hope to be up.
-Drank 8oz of hot water with half a lemon: the book suggests to do this every morning because it “awakens your digestive juices,” or something like that. to be honest, it doesn’t taste too good, but the lemon did wake me up some.
-By 11:00am went for a walk: the book (yes, I will be referencing the book a lot so I do suggest you buy it) directs to have 17 minutes of exercise to day, twice ideally. The 17 minutes I think is just a cutesy consistency with the title, but I walked around the state park for 45 minutes, just because it’s a full loop and I hate backtracking.
-Ate breakfast around 12:10: I still haven’t figured out if I want/should eat before or after walking, but today I decided to do it after. I had two scramble eggs with a sprinkle of low fat cheddar cheese with some salsa. Salsa is on the list of unlimited things you can have as dressings during this cycle, and it tastes really good with eggs. Also, by scrambling my eggs, I cut down on the amount of grease on my eggs.
-Lunch at 2:30: because I have to leave for work at 3:30, I had to have lunch a little early (meaning closer to breakfast than 3 hours, which is ideal). I made a salad with iceberg lettuce, orange peppers, cucumber, tomato, and a serving (palm sized) of grilled chicken. I drizzled a tablespoon of olive oil, with two tablespoons of balsamic vinaigrette for a dressing.
-Snack at 5:00pm: just had a chobiani Greek yogurt. nothing too special.
-Ritas: everyone at work got ritas and I caved and got a small vanilla custard (i figured it would hve less sugar than an Italian ice). I immediately regretted it, only ate three bites, and gave it to a coworker. I’m awarding myself ten points because I definitely would not have done that before.
-Dinner around 7:30: before work, steamed corn and defrosted some broccoli and had with another serving of chicken. it was pretty plain, but very filling. Corn actually isn’t on the list of unlimited veggies, but I didn’t have anything else. I’ll have to keep that in mind when stopping for veggies tomorrow.
-Cookies :( I baked some cookies for a friend that i’m seeing tomorrow and I munched on some dough. When the cookies were ready however, I let them cool and packed them up right away so I wouldn’t be tempted. I only had one small one with some milk. After eating healthy all day though, I do feel a little sick and “blah”
Today kind of look me by surprise, mostly cause I didn’t have all the food I needed. I need to buy a lot more veggies and fruit, and some more ingredients for meals. Tomorrow though, i’ve leaving my house fairly early and spending the day down at my friends house about two hours away. I hope to get in a walk in the morning before I leave and making breakfast, but i’m worried about the other meals, especially because I don’t know anything food places in the area. I am, however, looking forward to starbucks (for which my town lacks). I think i’m just going to go with an iced coffee with soy milk and a truvia. that’s not to be right?
See you later!
-A
I’ve never done it before- but I can’t stop feeling guilty for what I ate today. I’m scared to try it- but I feel like I have too. Ugh.
At least tomorrow is a new day.
Wednesday, June 8th 2011
To be honest I did slack of today and didn’t hit the gym, but I did do a little light exercise before bed
> 200 Crunches
30 Day Wight Loss Challenge
Day Three - Thinspiration
I’m not really into thinspiration. I look at it sometimes but usually to see what these girls are wearing. I’m really into fashion and clothes and things of that nature. I love lookbook.com and whowhatwear.com. I look at those websites all the time and i would love to feel more comfortable in my clothes and wear different, fun things!
I also have a total girl crush on Binki Shapiro from the band Little Joy. She is beautiful, talented and has great STYLE. A really inspiring woman.
Haven’t had a chance to weigh myself yet this week. I’ve been crazy busy with summer school starting (chemistry from 9:30am to 2:30pm…sick) and working six days this week. I managed to fit some exercise in tonight though. Did my first day of the 30 Day Shred and swam laps for about 30 minutes.
Morning~
In about 2 hours I’ll have my maths exam and all I can think about is, how can I get rid of these calories of my fxxking and horrible breakfast.
My mother forced me to eat 3 (!!!) little pieces of some kind of brownies. And then also gave me a sandwich for the exam. And if it’s not already enough, she gave me 5€ for lunch :’D
I think this woman doesn’t understand anything. Or my mind is just kinda damaged. I mean, HOW can people eat breakfast, snack, lunch and dinner?!
I would cry my eyes out if I had to eat this much…
But well~ that’s just my opinion. My family has very different thoughts.
Anyways. Wish me luck for the exam, I’ll be back after it.
Stay strong my sweeties ?
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Half of it is the thrill of experiencing something new. Something I’ve never ever had. The second part is getting to wear the clothes. I want to wear anything I want. Mary Kate Olsen dresses in a way that if she had like, 10 spare pounds, she’d constantly look like a bag lady, rather than a billionaire. I want that power.
couldn’t bring myself to do it. I hate myself right now.
Xenadrine Water
Breakfast: Grapes, Peach
Snack: Banana Chips
Xen Water
Lunch: Protein Bar
Xen Water
Dinner: Breaded Fake Chicken Nuggets w/ Hot & Sweet Mustard and a side salad w/ fat free balsamic vinaigrette dressing
man junior year of high school I was gettinn bigg!
and even at the beginning of this year!
I may not be 100% happy with what I look like now, but I am glad I’ve lost weight!
It motivates me to keep going!
